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Hi all

I just wonder something about the weard care givers at phew just now how menny phew will take on and then say we better stop as she takes on the staff but she does not seem to ever keep any of them and that is the very interesting thing about this all visits of recent I feel confused and that is how its effecting me getting showered now as I do not even know who will get me up and ready never mind do other things for me in the day I mean I have been going since I was 4 years of age but when I was young it used to be more stable than it is now yes I have saw some changes over the years hush not for the best end user I must say at all but recently it has got worse and I mean its not a hoot or a laugh I came home ages ago and that Friday half way in the night I vomited now to this day I wonder if I ate something half cooked as over there you get meals wich are just about cold buy the time you get them I do not know about you I like my food to be roasting so what ever bugs its in it get killed off before I eat it and mum asked me this private question

Have you been to the loo for a seat this week I harley go there rightly its as if I have feelings of needen a seat then they go away after about a second and I do hope to see the contracted staff like linda mclean as we think my eye cite is failing and my cerebal palsy is getting worse now if my eye sight is failing I will not be able to tell what she has on what close or trousers she has on or roberta or any of them that lets me know they are there in my room or vickie with her blue jeans on when they give me my seizure tablets I can tell who it is giving them to me

See when you are used to seeing who it is it can be hard to not know I am not sexest I just enjoy looking at there colour of there out fit especially if its one of my friends who will not judge me for doing that most of my friends are lady care givers I am not in love but they ware the close I can just make out of the side of my right eye as my left eye I am totally blind in and maybe my right one is going the same root I wood like to think no but who knows

And linda can understand me more than the rest if it is true you see I know people come and go but they are like horses in there I just had a pork sandwich and tea for my lunch and linda knows some of the coded words I use I have got one if I want some time on my own and I need her to see to me at the end of the private time on my own as I need her to clean my bum as I do need manule help to do this task and since it is a strate 7 days I will need my bum cleaned once or daily

Wood I ask a weardo no not a chance in hell are they getting near that part of my body checked or not buy the police I do not care if it’s a lady or a man no chance sorry for the swearing again but this place makes me cross and all the mager change in staff wood I ask the manager yes if I have to yes as knew her for years yes she does do care as well

Hugs

Jm